What's her game?

long story short: I dated this boy (We'll call him "B") for about two months and it did not work out. After some time appart, we became friends again. We grew closer together through texts (I know, that's juivenille and lame...but anyhoo) and deep conversations. In the beginning, they were often about other girls he thought he was in love with. Now that I think about it, I think I was the only girl he was not in love with. You see I was there for him when the girl he was in love with at the time wouldn't give him the time of day and I comforted him when he was crushed and badda bing badda boom! We began dating. Anyway, we had some wonderful conversations and often I found myself thinking, "Why didn't this happen when we were dating? We would never have broken up if we could talk like this!" Anyway he is in a band and they've been switching around with singers, all girls I think, and he fell in love with one in particular (She will be "K"). Again, long story-short (this isn't a Yahoo!Answers post/question/ramble/annoying thing nobody reads-oh! haha that's right, nobody reads this....ANYWAY, long story-short they had a little up and down kinda-nonexistent fling. However while his feelings for her grew stronger, she refeused to commit to a relationship to him, despite her supposed feelings for him as well. It turns out K was waiting for another boy. And when the other guy turned out to refuse commiting to HER, K still did not want to seriously date B. So now they are not talking, and she has the gall to complain! K is upset that B doesn;t want to talk to her! She insits that she cares and so she is hurt that he will not.... WOW this is EXACTLY like a Yahoo!Answers post/question/ramble/annoying thing nobody reads. In truth, there is so much depth to this story and so many details, I cannot do it justice in recolecton. It turns out that I have been stirred up and down by this boy. He drives me crazy, and I love it. His touch sets my insides on fire. And whenever he mentions K or remnants of his affections for her come to my attention I burn with envy. I have spend hours and days explaining my feeling to myself. "You only feel this way because he was your first boyfriend." "It is only because you cannot have him anymore." "You have raw feelings, you take ANY attention from a boy too far." "You are hormonal!" But how many boys stir butterflies in my stomach with just one touch or one look? How many boys make my day just by happening across my field of vision? How many boys make me strive to be a better me every single day? I have got it bad and I cannot stand it. How can I be his friend while suppressing my feelings? Even if there were an oppotunity for us to get back together, the thought of K and his love for her would always be on my mind. Also the fact that B has fallen fast and hard more than once before plants the seed of doubt that any feelings he could possibly have for me are genuine. I already said that I don't think he loved me when we dated, and I was his longest serious relationship. I think I am destined to torture myself over him until I graduate. Or until I meet someone that could possbly make me feel the way B makes me feel. I think I love him and I am totally screwed.